Strange but true

OK, now for some strange stuff...I HAVE to document this because, well, I don’t believe in coincidences anymore. God has His hand in everything we do. We want signs? He gives them to us every day. We’re just sometimes too blind or too caught up in life to notice.

Here’s sign No. 1.
On Wednesday, Nov. 4, I walked into our middle bedroom where my closet is and there on the floor near my closet was a box. A pregnancy test box to be exact. I had stashed the box on the shelf in my closet like I had done many times before. It’s not something I wanted just hanging out for everyone to see and question. Todd never even knew about the tests but only because I didn’t want to ever get his hopes up just to have them come crashing down much like mine did every single time I took one of those tests! I swear we should have bought stock in Clearblue Easy. We’d be rich for sure!

Anyway, I walked over and picked that box up and shoved it back in the closet. For a brief moment, I wondered to myself if that meant something. Then, I passed it off as wishful thinking. I was due to get my period the next day. For whatever reason, it just fell off the closet shelf and landed in plain sight where I could see it. Right!

Thank you, God, for sign No. 1.

No. 2 isn’t really a sign, I guess, but more like an odd occurrence.

I was watching Ellen as I always DVR her show. In the beginning of her monologue, she was telling her audience how she was going to reveal to them the cover of “O” Magazine, in which she is on the cover with Oprah herself in next month’s issue. Then she proceeded to show previous episodes where she “talked” to Oprah through the camera, asking to be on her magazine. It went back to her monologue and she explained what she believed really happened. She said she put her desire to be on “O” out there for the universe in the hopes the universe would give it back to her, answering her request with a resounding yes! Then she told her audience and the camera that if you have a dream, ask for it. Put it out there and it would come back to you. So, for whatever reason I said out loud, by myself in my living room, “I want a baby,” and then sort of chuckled to myself, thinking that seemed a bit ridiculous. Obviously the universe wasn’t going to grant me this special wish. God was going to do it. Little did I know that just a few short hours later, He would do it in a really big way!

No. 3 isn’t really a sign either, just another odd thing. I sometimes like to go on You Tube and look up videos of people surprising their friends and family with the news they’re pregnant. I know. Pure torture, right? I watched a few videos and then realized I really needed to pee. I got up and decided right then and there I was going to take a pregnancy test. The fact that my period never showed up on Thursday, Nov. 5, was driving me nuts. I had been really regular for the past year and was on a 34-day cycle. But the day came and went with nothing. I tried talking myself into the idea that I had the symptoms. I was moody, emotional, my boobs were sore and I just felt like it was coming. I’ve been stressed out about our financial situation lately and chalked up my lateness to that. I even told Tina that earlier in the day. Those who have tried and tried for years to get pregnant know what it’s like to be disappointed time and time again. I was getting my period. I was sure of it. And to just calm my nerves, I was going to rule out being pregnant. Getting those words “Not pregnant” was something I was used to. So, I was just going to pee on the stick, get the word NO out of the way and then concentrate on hopefully getting my period in the next day or two. I guess it’ll be longer than a day or two now.

I kept picking up the test and looking at it. I’d like to say words can’t describe how I’m feeling but I guess I’m doing a good job of putting this evening into words.